When Letting go Takes You Further

May 31, 2:30am, Melbourne. Competition day. Pounding headache, nausea, and barely any sleep behind me. The kind of day where the logical choice is to stay in bed and regroup. And I very nearly did.

My plan had been a 200m+ DYN dive, but I knew this wouldn’t happen. No way! I seriously considered pulling the pin and rest. However, I decide to at least do the AP of 111m for my boys who just turned 11. Before the dive, I said to the water:

“Be my teacher today, and I will be your student.”

What followed was a dive that surprised me on every level.

No counting. No striving. No expectations.

I slipped into the water with the intention to rest. To move only with trust, to meet myself gently.

And somewhere between the first wall and the last, the headache disappeared. So did the discomfort. The doubts. The urge to breathe.

Triple kick, glide.

Kick, kick, kick, glide…

Flow. Acceptance. Soft power.

I surfaced 184 metres later — not just with a white card, but with tears in my eyes.

It was the most joyful, peaceful dive of my competition journey so far. 

And it almost didn’t happen!

🎥 Watch the full dive & reflection below:

Freediving often teaches us the most when we least expect it. 

It asks us not just to be strong, but to be open. Not to push, but to listen. To move not just with muscle, but with presence.

These are the moments I live for — and the kind of dives I love to help others experience. If you’re a freediver looking to find more ease, flow, and depth (inside and out)…

If you’re curious how surrender can become strength…

If you want to explore what’s possible when you dive with the water, not against it — I’d love to see you fly!

Get in touch!